Wow, 7 months. I haven't posted here in 7 months. That seems so strange to me. I was so excited about this. About having a space to place my thoughts and to let feelings and stories and emotions flow out of me as naturally as it did. Honestly, I completely forgot about this until my good friend Kyle had asked me if I was still blogging. Life got in the way. Work, school, dating, and trying to get my shit together really got in the way of things like this.
Since the last time I was here I have moved home, started going to a community college, got a job at a coffee shop not far from my house, and started dating. I was really content. Until recently. I realized that I had gotten boring! Me! Meagan Amanda Heier was boring! How the hell did this happen?! I used to be the girl that people turned to during a sad time because I always had a story to tell after a drunken rampage with my best friend Bailey.
Oh how I miss Bailey. We were such a rock for each other when I was living in Seattle. Friends, no, soul sisters like that come around so rarely that holding on to those people is the most important thing a person could do to keep their sanity. Anyway, back to the point.
I was exciting! I lived for adventure and said "Fuck the man!" every Friday night. And Saturday night. And maybe on the occasional Tuesday afternoon. Then I moved home and started working on myself. I fucked off for a little bit and then I got this job at the coffee shop. Got promoted after 2 months and worked a bunch. I started to be so busy that I was no longer satisfied with relaxing. I had to go go go. I totally got a thrill out of it too. Yes! I was being a productive member of society!
Don't get me wrong, I love how my life is going. I think I am heading down a really awesome path. But last night I made a realization. I never do any thing fun. I work, study, sleep, and drink coffee. That's about it.
So, I need to rediscover my sense of adventure. I miss being exciting. It's time to let loose and be a little less serious.
