The airport is like my third home

I am currently waiting for my flight from the Seattle/Tacoma airport to the Long Beach airport to board. Just 10 more minutes left.

I have flown many, many times before, but this was the first time I actually felt prepared. I have learned to perfect packing my bags and figuring out my bus schedule, so that I time it that I arrive at the airport an hour before my flight boards. I have learned that checking a bag is unnecessary most of the time (and it costs money and I spend all of that on other things, like food and clothes). I didn't worry about a thing this time.

I think that me not being worried about a thing like traveling and feeling responsible is a good sign that I am capable of growing up. Turning 20 doesn't seem so scary anymore. It's just another year.

On another note, I am excited to go home. So excited. And I am tired. I would try to crawl under the bench I am sitting on and try to go to sleep, but gate A10 (I am pretty familiar with this gate) and I aren't that close yet. I mean we have only been on probably about 5 dates. Maybe next time I will, but I don't know what protocol is on things like this.

Update: Well, I just saw two people making out at my gate. And a little girl is putting chapstick on, but she wound it up so high that the whole stick was outside of it's plastic container. I thought that was really cute. The little girl and her chapstick. Not the couple making out. That's gross.

I'm not supposed to be a grown up

I am turning 20 years old. In 7 days. It's a very exciting thing to turn 20. You aren't a teenager anymore, but you are still young enough to make stupid decisions and break rules. (I have this mentality that all rules are meant to be broken, although that is very dumb and no one should actually think this way. Like seriously, if you live your life this way, you will probably die. And I am not saying this to scare you; it will actually, most definitely happen.) However, I am not excited for this day to come. I want to be a teenager forever; I kind of like having an excuse to be angsty.

And the angst thing isn't the real reason. That's just what I tell people to sound clever and funny.

I am immature. Sure I can handle being 1,000 miles away from my family 9 months out of the year. I can work full time over the summer when all my friends are going to the beach, because that is what I think I need to do (Okay this isn't that big of a deal, but I think it is. I mean I live is a place that virtually gets no sun, ever, and then when I go home over the summer to sunny Southern California, I want to go to the beach and see my friends and all that summer stuff that people do. But I choose to work full time at a yogurt and smoothie shop instead. At least I can make some pretty wicked smoothies. And I make money. That's really nice too). However, I am still immature.

And here is evidence:

I watch Nickelodeon. And Disney Channel. But mostly Nickelodeon. I wish I could say that I just watch it to try to relive my childhood every now and again, but no. I watch it every day. Because I actually like it. I love Spongebob Squarepants. And sure you could say, "But Meagan, you used to watch that when you were little. It's okay if you do. You are just reliving your childhood." But I already told you that I actually enjoy watch all of Nickelodeon, and sure I do watch shows on there that I used to watch as a child, like Spongebob and the Fairly Odd Parents, but I watch the new shows too. I often find myself watching iCarly, the show about a girl and her friends that have their own popular web-series. Some times I tell myself that I watch it because I think that Spencer, Carly's big brother, is really cute and funny (It's okay, he's not a teenager. He's like 31 in real life or something like that), kind of like a younger Jim Carrey. (I happen have a thing for tall, skinny, gangly men that happen to be hilarious. And Jim Carrey is a great example of that). But in reality, I actually like this show. It's funny, and cute, and I wish that my high school and middle school experiences would have been just like Carly's (I hated middle school and high school. Actually, middle school wasn't that bad. High school was the worst expereince of my life though).

I could explain the other shows on that channel, like Big Time Rush, and VICTORiOUS, but that is just too embarrassing to explain. At least iCarly is pretty popular among elementary school age children.

However, I have recently found myself watching and enjoying Sex and the City. I mean, that's a pretty grown up show right? You have 4, 30 year old women living in Manhattan that are all living their grown-up lives. And I want their lives! They are so grown-up and sophisticated. And they all dress well, something I have to learn how to do still (I wear yoga pants and sweat shirts waaaay too often, and I don't even do yoga).

I actually find myself relating to Carrie quite a bit though. Especially her relationships, but that's another blog post for another time.